The Depths of my intentions are even Beyond my own understanding’

Driven by Logic but i loose control because my hearts more Demanding’

& it’s hard to ignore because the Burning fixation sensation is constantly expanding’

The Ironic Beauty about flying is that there will inevitably be a Landing’

& although I know this transaction must end the result of it will be longstanding’

& the fact that you afforded me this opportunity is Beyond Outstanding’

This may strike as a little unexpected’

But you should know there’s more to me then Projected’

I see this as an opportunity for us to get Connected’

Because Honestly you appeal to me More then I Suspected’

& there’s a lot to admire from the Intel I’ve collected’

You have a lot of viewers so I’ve decided to appeal with a different Method’

In hopes my words touch your mind & Heart & make you Breathless’

I hope my words take your strength when you walk so you feel Legless’

I hope my words exceed anything you’ve ever heard to the point that you are senseless’

& Lastly I hope my words bring comfort & remind you of your Preciousness’

You never told me any lies but I always chose to seek the answers in your eyes’

Not because I didn’t trust you but because I wanted to understand your why’

And that has always been the question on my mind’

And now i ask how could I have ever been so blind’

After months of pain and thinking I realized you were loving the only way you knew how’

And I attempted to do the same, Beloved is it Thou’

A term that you hated but a word that made me feel closer to a time i identified with’

But I understood your concerns and how a guy like me can be viewed as a Myth’

A prior fake Gangsta , turned to a Student , Poet , Marine youth organizer’

I wouldn’t believe a word I said either but I am far from a Womanizer’

With all the losses I’ve taken you would think I am better at coping’

But You are a lost I can’t recover from so I have to keep Hoping’

A Silky Milky Soft Texture to match an Edible Demeanor’

Such a Delicate Stature I had to take the Acquaintance Deeper’

With such Sincere Eyes & Warm Bright Smile your presence Acts as a Heater’

The Curiosity comes from the fact that your not much of a Speaker’

But Your Characteristics send out positive Frequencies & I’m the Receiver’

It’s not a Game but I’m trying to play my cards right & your my dealer’

With the ability to make the Pain go away like a Healer’

In addition to covering the blemishes of my life like concealer’

Their aren’t enough distractions in the world to make me forget our brief Moment’

Stated before that im great alone but, you brought such a substantial component’

My problems went unsolved because I failed to to see the value of your exponent’

And the lack of trust and understanding forced you into being my opponent’

It was so unfortunate_ my Brokenness led to endless Arguments’

And I knew it was inappropriate so I prayed the negative banter wasn’t permanent’

But as a Protagonist my arrogance undoubtedly became terminal’

So i pray you didn’t take it personal and your judgement on me is merciful’

Despite my issues I felt like our time was purposeful’

Although our efforts weren’t always symmetrical’

And that’s The was the biggest issue of all in my strong bias opinion’

We spent so much time testing one another instead of sharing our vision’

I had my own mission so I heard what you were saying but didn’t fully listen’

Became so focused on winning I became the villain and created negative conditions’

But we both refused submission which ultimately lead to our sad division’

we were great at our respected positions but we just required an intermission

We are both Belligerently Beautiful & Brilliant people By definition’

So on most days I’m wishing we could start from the beginning under a better condition’

I overall wish you nothing but pleasurable Satisfaction’

the last thing I would ever want to be is a distraction’

I had every intention on trying to add Value not subtraction’

But over the years I was so use to relying on charm & attraction’

So instead of sharing all my thoughts I only gave you a fraction’

With each passing transaction I feared your true reaction’

But I gave a lot of moments of my actual true compassion’

But I would freeze in fear, listening to my hearts contractions’

Trying to remove years pain for you like abstractions’

Hiding behind my glasses , smooth actions and fashion’

But some how you saw thru my strong exterior and deep insta Captions’

Thought you was cappen told me loosing you would hurt but I couldn’t imagine’

I tried to be the captain, pilot and attendant and as a result Im forever Crashin’

So my pass pleasures has me stuck in present pain while my life is flashing’

But I keep taking trips & buying drip so you don’t see the hurt I’m masking’

Faking smiles while in denial when things get foul I call it multitasking’

It only took a minute for me to lose you but the result is for everlasting’